this will not be an apology tour
though i have many and much to
the ones that matter manifest
into shame that causes days of drinking
too much. thinking too much.
my best friend who loved me unconditionally.
wanted a life with me, despite my wounds.
i showed him love by fucking his childhood friend.
by stopping his city to have dinner with him
only to catch a connecting flight to see someone else.
happily he is married now. 2 beautiful sons.
i imagine he will warn his boys to stay away from
girls like me.