this will not be an apology tour

though i have many and much to

apologize for.

the ones that matter manifest

into shame that causes days of drinking

too much. thinking too much.

my best friend who loved me unconditionally.

wanted a life with me, despite my wounds.

i showed him love by fucking his childhood friend.

by stopping his city to have dinner with him

only to catch a connecting flight to see someone else.

happily he is married now. 2 beautiful sons.

i imagine he will warn his boys to stay away from

girls like me.