i ordered two more bottles of french rose.

light pink and dry.

to celebrate 51.

unshowered. unshaven.

those things do not matter anymore

after this sense of undiscovery

of why i lack trust.

am always guarded.

why the ebb and flow of pain and loss

disappointment.

did i mention pain.

with 40 minutes left

i think i cannot

disappoint another soul.