i can’t handle his best friend’s addiction

i want him to stop texting

stop answering the phone

i need a rest from pain entering

our apartment.

i use therapy words like

“flooding”

“triggering”

it even sounds like bullshit to me.

i just need a rest

only having my garden roses

surrounding me

my mother’s favorite

all planted for her.

she wanted to live and couldn’t.

he wants to die and can’t.